ChoCoLAte

Here it comes again
19th of October
it is as empty as previous year
i couldn't say 'happy birthday,dear!'
all i could say,
'how are u doing up there?'

u are the one who teach me:
to walk
to talk
to read
to listen
to watch and learn
to be patient
to wait
but, u never teach me how to cope
for u never get the chance to see me
grow up as a matured young lady....

it has been 4 years
i've learned an unusual amount
how i'm taking care of myself
solving my own problems
listen to others as u always do
yet, no one's there listen to me
when i'm down
when i'm happy
when i'm thinking that
it is where u used to be
But,i'm okay
i'm a grown up now
u don't have to worried anymore
because,u have taught me a lot
that help me get through these...

joy,happiness,ups and downs,pains,
sadness,laugh,smile,emo,birth,death,
that is life...
it will never ends
i am kinda lucky cos'
i still got the chance to feel these
though inside, i never really think i have feelings....

Happy birthday,dad..
how i wish i can buy chocolate for u once again...

-Al-FATIHAH-